Here, I guess.

[beck]

Should make some sort of update I suppose. Not much to say really.

Issues on the home front just put me in a "don't really give a fuck anymore"/numb attitude about anything and everything.

Had a pretty shitty night last night when it came to sleeping. It was warm in the house since it's been in the 80's for the past few days and even with the windows open and the ceiling fan running didn't do much. Just felt so restless. Plus the cat was very antsy last night so he kinda kept me awake. Then to top that off, I was having some majorly fucked up dreams that kinda scare me. I don't feel sleepy which is surprising to me since it felt like I hardly slept at all. Had a really weird dream last week too that scared the crap out of me and couldn't wait to wake myself up.

Lack of motivation of any fandom or watching anime has put me in a damper. I guess I chalk that up between the home front situation and just not really finding the need to really get into much anime anymore unless something just JUMPS at me and sucks me in (not many have been giving me that feeling since the last few yrs though OP will no doubt be my most fav series.) I can't even push myself to try out any new shows. It's taking me a few weeks to finally watch what I had dl'ed of OP and Bleach from these past few weeks. I might just get the chance to catch up a bit tonight at work.

I've been pushing myself harder to learn Japanese so that's actually taking up a good bit of my time while at work and a teeny tiny bit at home. I've gotten Hiragana out of the way and working on learning kana before moving to the next steps that will be challenging. But I like the idea that I can hopefully learn a new language I never got to do before.

It's also not helping my shitty mood about the previous chapters of Tenjou Tenge #113 in regards to Bunshichi. I don't think I ever cried that hard over a damn anime/character. Maybe I'll make a separate post about that soon as well as a link for the dl to the chapter and #114. Though I gotta say, after seeing #114, I can't wait to see what Masataka is going to do.

Never got around to thanking those that dropped me some prompts in regards to Orihime and Ichigo and RenRuki awhile back. Alot of good ideas and I'll try to see what I can come up with later on when I feel the need to be creative.

And the uplifting bit for me,

The tracklisting for the new Beat Crusader's cd is as such:

01. TIME FLIES, EVERYTHING GOES
02. LEMON HEAD
03. BECAUSE
04. SHOOTING STAR
05. GARDEN IN THE SHELL
06. WORK IT OUT
07. CHINESE JET SET
08. OLGADIES
09. LET'S GET BACK
10. SOLDIERS IN MY SOUL
11. SHOOT THE SKY
12. WINTERLONG
13. SUMMEREND
14. JIVE

Comments

[akuni.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry to hear you're having troubles. :( I'd wondered if something was up, as you were unusually non-posty. I can understand feeling numb and apathetic, I've been in a bit of a funk myself these past 6 weeks or so.

Hopefully things'll swing up again for you soon! ♥

[yankeerose69.livejournal.com]

Yeah, hopefully time will heal the wounds. I've actually been wanting to post lately even while going through this bad time in my life but I actually didn't know what to post about (very shocking for me!). Especially since I haven't been feeling the sting of any fandom or anime as of late. Plus I guess when I get engrossed in something I'm striving to learn, I put everything else on the back-burner to concentrate on my studies. (I can only hope I learn a little something, at least!)

In the next few weeks, I should be able to finally get on chat w/out too many problems.

Hopefully things'll swing up again for you soon! ♥

Part of the problem leaves tomorrow. I think after a few months, things should cool down and get back to some sort of normality.

Thanx chickie! *hugs*

Want me to....

[guardianhunter.livejournal.com]

Kick 'em in da head??????

*hugs*

If there's anything I can do, just let me know. You're still in my prayers whether you think it's "worth" it or not. *HUGGLES*

ME WUV YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!111

Re: Want me to....

[yankeerose69.livejournal.com]

Kick 'em in da head??????

I don't think you even want to know what I would want done. *lol*

Thanx many times over and again for being there when I need it. It's easier to tell someone who's been through it than to someone who hasn't and can't really relate to the feelings.

WUV YOU 2!!!11

Re: Want me to....

[guardianhunter.livejournal.com]

*LOL*

You're probably right.
But the difference between acquaintences and GREAT FRIENDS is....
The acquaintence bails you out of jail. The GREAT FRIEND is sitting next to you.

~__^

*HUGGLES*

[liz-cando.livejournal.com]

yeah i know slow.. i finally finished all the beach episodes you d/led and sent to me... i have to start d/ling where that left off.. will probably start doing that with weekend. i like it. it's different and interresting. i haven't gotten many of the others watched but i'm slowly working on it..

it's not too hot here yet. today was 75 to marrow will be cooler but it's gonna rain...
ok i'll shut up now.

[yankeerose69.livejournal.com]

It's just a weird feeling knowing that I'm slowly growing out of my anime faze. I'm not all hyped up and googly about it like I used to be when it was still fresh and new. But like everything else as a hobby, it gets stale.

We've had a few cold fronts this past weekend and even though it will be warm during the days, it's getting cooler again at night, at least down to the 50's which feels weird.

[liz-cando.livejournal.com]

yeah, i find my self just getting ones that i think i'l really like. i hardly ever brouse for anime or manga any more... it seems like it's all the same old story lines any more... but i'll get all the stuff i'm working on now and see how i feel then.

it's been cold then warm then cold.. we had frost monday morning.... is spring ever going to get here?? i'm sure ready.

[scarbie.livejournal.com]

Oh my gosh, Beck... I'm so sorry to hear that you're having troubles. I wish I could give you a hug in person.

I hope that these nightmares will go away too. That shit will wake you right up.

I'm way behind as far as what animes are out and are some good.

[yankeerose69.livejournal.com]

Sorry for taking so long on sending you that email. Been trying to get some other things out of the way that I was typing up elsewhere. Hopefully you'll get something before the weekend.

Most of the new stuff for anime hasn't interested me and I long ago gave up on following the Gantz manga. It was becoming waaaaaaaaaaaay too much of a mind fuck that it was just getting harder to follow.